Hi Guys
Already the start of 2014 and things were looking bright as I'm still pumped from my 1st NYE in about a decade and a sporting overload of Twenty20 Cricket and Soccer(Football) + Friends and living life but I do wonder if I'll ever understand myself as well as my place in this world?
Being Autistic in a cruel,unfaithful world is tough as I'm a late bloomer in life as I only just begun but I feel that something is missing as I'm a bit misguided on relationships as not only I've never had a girlfriend but I've never had sex either.....That's Right.......I'm a virgin...........I find sex degrading,discusting and I'm very uncomfortable because I believe women should be treated equal and I'm scared of hurting them for life,for me at times it's a blessing and other times it's frustrating because I'm trying to be a sensitive soul but I'm scared to death of love and being Autistic means Intimate Relationships don't even occur at all unless I'm taught by someone,not learn on my own.
Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever find love and sometimes I wonder if I'll ever see a girl in her underwear because I think I'll never get to find love and I hate doing anything illegal as well,I don't know why Australian Women don't bother finding a partner themselves instead of doing the work for them?
It's just I'm gentle,I love fashion and I'm loyal and I'll do anything but all people do these days is give up.
I'm tired of the injustice of life and all I want is to be happy but how can I if no one will ever understand me or others like me.
Who knows,Who cares.
All I ask is to find love bit I don't know intimacy at all and if I die a virgin,I will feel mixed but I'm confused but who knows.
I hope that you guys will understand and acknowledge my struggle but I'm only 30 and it's my time.
Take Care
Chris Cornish
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