Hi Guys
It has been One-Crazy ride as things has turned around like crazy.For instance since Christmas,I was so down that I was feeling at my end and ready to give up on life and force myself to being a sheep but NOOOOOOOOOO........I came back and Fight!!!!!!!
After Christmas,my fortunes turned around as on New Years Eve I went to a Twenty20 Cricket game at world famous Adelaide Oval Stadium(in case you don't know Cricket is a game that Australia plays and it's a global sport but not as big as Baseball) witch was crazy and Adelaide's team won and then I went to a NYE party at a Casino in Adelaide to see some friends of mine who are Musicians and it was my 1st NYE party in almost 10 years and it felt fantastic.
Between January 1 and 13 I was having too much fun with Soccer,A bit of Shopping and Catch Ups with people.
January 13 I'm pumped to be back at work as I realise that work keeps me driven and happy and who cares about the money,I appreciate what I get.
Last Weekend,I was back at my element at Westfield Marion,S.A. As I was doing a bit of Shopping and some of my friends work in retail and they rock,Appointment after appointment but friends to see as well + Twenty20 Cricket was LOCO as I was surrounded by crazy people like Men on a Bucks Party with 2 of them dressed like Women and had a Sex Doll in front of kids but it's a laugh but even know we lost,it was a blast and Sunday was Soccer and I fear there was a riot but well behaved and WE WON 1-0 over West Sydney Wanderers and it was SWEEEEEETTTT!!!!!
Even know there was downs but there was also Huge Highs and I feel I've got no mellow ground,my life is a yoyo and I can't control it!!!!!!
If only I'd want to catch up with friends every week and stop my shopping addiction and one day find love and lose my virginity?
We'll wait and see......until then,Stay Spicie
Monday 20 January 2014
Thursday 9 January 2014
Why is My Life so miserable?
I cannot believe it,my life is so miserable as once again,the media and society in General is crippling me to deal with everyday living and I'm sick to death with that.
For instance I've got HUGE anger management problems that even I cannot fix,I've never touched cigarets or illicit drugs and only drink occasionally but for some strange reason,it's not good enough for y'all,I cannot control my emotions,I can't handle criticism,I can't handle public transport in Adelaide and let me give you some advice,NEVER COME TO ADELAIDE,AUSTRALIA,it's boring down there and worst of all I CAN'T GET A GIRLFRIEND AND I'M GOING TO DIE A VIRGIN!!!!!!!
Every single person is now too busy that they are NOT human anymore instead they are slaves to money and I feel hurt that I'm never going to have good friends or a girlfriend and is it my fault? NO,IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT YOU CHOOSE TO BE SELFISH!!!!!!!!!!
I've even turned my back on my entire family due to the fact that they're busy and don't have time for me,not even Christmas or Easter.
Now I'm forced to take more antipsychotic medication to the opine that I feel like I'm becoming a junkie on pills and it's all Dr Ian Jennings fault and I'm so mad that I wish I was dead.
I need good friends who are not Christian,Selfish,Dumb,Boring and more importantly I need a girlfriend and I nene some women in my life because I need variety,not stupidity.
PLEASE GUYS,I NEED YOUR HELP?
For instance I've got HUGE anger management problems that even I cannot fix,I've never touched cigarets or illicit drugs and only drink occasionally but for some strange reason,it's not good enough for y'all,I cannot control my emotions,I can't handle criticism,I can't handle public transport in Adelaide and let me give you some advice,NEVER COME TO ADELAIDE,AUSTRALIA,it's boring down there and worst of all I CAN'T GET A GIRLFRIEND AND I'M GOING TO DIE A VIRGIN!!!!!!!
Every single person is now too busy that they are NOT human anymore instead they are slaves to money and I feel hurt that I'm never going to have good friends or a girlfriend and is it my fault? NO,IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT YOU CHOOSE TO BE SELFISH!!!!!!!!!!
I've even turned my back on my entire family due to the fact that they're busy and don't have time for me,not even Christmas or Easter.
Now I'm forced to take more antipsychotic medication to the opine that I feel like I'm becoming a junkie on pills and it's all Dr Ian Jennings fault and I'm so mad that I wish I was dead.
I need good friends who are not Christian,Selfish,Dumb,Boring and more importantly I need a girlfriend and I nene some women in my life because I need variety,not stupidity.
PLEASE GUYS,I NEED YOUR HELP?
Friday 3 January 2014
It's not easy being me.
Hi Guys
Already the start of 2014 and things were looking bright as I'm still pumped from my 1st NYE in about a decade and a sporting overload of Twenty20 Cricket and Soccer(Football) + Friends and living life but I do wonder if I'll ever understand myself as well as my place in this world?
Being Autistic in a cruel,unfaithful world is tough as I'm a late bloomer in life as I only just begun but I feel that something is missing as I'm a bit misguided on relationships as not only I've never had a girlfriend but I've never had sex either.....That's Right.......I'm a virgin...........I find sex degrading,discusting and I'm very uncomfortable because I believe women should be treated equal and I'm scared of hurting them for life,for me at times it's a blessing and other times it's frustrating because I'm trying to be a sensitive soul but I'm scared to death of love and being Autistic means Intimate Relationships don't even occur at all unless I'm taught by someone,not learn on my own.
Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever find love and sometimes I wonder if I'll ever see a girl in her underwear because I think I'll never get to find love and I hate doing anything illegal as well,I don't know why Australian Women don't bother finding a partner themselves instead of doing the work for them?
It's just I'm gentle,I love fashion and I'm loyal and I'll do anything but all people do these days is give up.
I'm tired of the injustice of life and all I want is to be happy but how can I if no one will ever understand me or others like me.
Who knows,Who cares.
All I ask is to find love bit I don't know intimacy at all and if I die a virgin,I will feel mixed but I'm confused but who knows.
I hope that you guys will understand and acknowledge my struggle but I'm only 30 and it's my time.
Take Care
Chris Cornish
Already the start of 2014 and things were looking bright as I'm still pumped from my 1st NYE in about a decade and a sporting overload of Twenty20 Cricket and Soccer(Football) + Friends and living life but I do wonder if I'll ever understand myself as well as my place in this world?
Being Autistic in a cruel,unfaithful world is tough as I'm a late bloomer in life as I only just begun but I feel that something is missing as I'm a bit misguided on relationships as not only I've never had a girlfriend but I've never had sex either.....That's Right.......I'm a virgin...........I find sex degrading,discusting and I'm very uncomfortable because I believe women should be treated equal and I'm scared of hurting them for life,for me at times it's a blessing and other times it's frustrating because I'm trying to be a sensitive soul but I'm scared to death of love and being Autistic means Intimate Relationships don't even occur at all unless I'm taught by someone,not learn on my own.
Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever find love and sometimes I wonder if I'll ever see a girl in her underwear because I think I'll never get to find love and I hate doing anything illegal as well,I don't know why Australian Women don't bother finding a partner themselves instead of doing the work for them?
It's just I'm gentle,I love fashion and I'm loyal and I'll do anything but all people do these days is give up.
I'm tired of the injustice of life and all I want is to be happy but how can I if no one will ever understand me or others like me.
Who knows,Who cares.
All I ask is to find love bit I don't know intimacy at all and if I die a virgin,I will feel mixed but I'm confused but who knows.
I hope that you guys will understand and acknowledge my struggle but I'm only 30 and it's my time.
Take Care
Chris Cornish
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